STRUGGLE DAY 4

Today I did had a very bad day, Stomach ache and fever and a serious head ache because I couldn’t sleep properly last night and I don’t know why it happened. As I could remember my mind was calm last night no over thinking but I was not being able to fall asleep. It took me about more than 2 hours to fall asleep and I slept only for 4 to 5 hours as suddenly my eyes opened early in the morning and then I lied on bed and tried a lot to fall asleep but it didn’t help. I tried about half an hour to sleep again in the morning but failed and plus I was having a stomach ache so I decided to wake up.As because of all these issues today my whole day was a misery full of struggle. I know yesterday I had some spicy hot dinner so as a result I had a stomach ache. And myself I don’t know why I am sharing my miseries on the internet but one thing is for sure there are many of us who struggle daily like me. And to all of us like me I want to make clear that don’t loose hope because when earlier I had this problem (commonly known as depression) I couldn’t sleep at all. I used lie on the bed and use to get up in the morning with no sleep and it went on for many months. There was hardly a day as I remember that I would sleep. And if luckily I fell asleep that too would be only for 2 or 3 hours. But above all this miseries the obly thing I had within me was hope, a hope to to have a normal life, a hope to smile, a hope to have a good sleep. When one day while going through my newsfeed on Facebook I saw a video and I played it that  it was a video by Jay Shetty and that was it from that moment i felt like there many more who feels same like me,who are struggling like me and it gave me some hope and slowly I began to watch inspirational videos because when you are in depression you lack inspiration and it helped me a lot. And after that I began to watch more of his video it made me happy gave me positive feelings and gave me a way to look life in another way.

I’ll continue tomorrow.,……

Now it’s already 12: 35 am here right now and I am not well today and I am in desperate need of some good sleep. I hope I could fall asleep quickly because that would always be my only intention when I go to bed.

Ok friends Good night,. Stay healthy and happy. Love❤😘

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